The first time I stood on a stage, I threw up. I was 7 years old, and, 10 seconds into an acting class, fear sent my stomach somersaulting. Years later, I tried a high school acting course. My first scene involved a stage kiss. This sent me into paroxysms of unease that resulted in what I can only imagine was the world 鶹Ʒ Ss hardest kiss to watch. By college, I 鶹Ʒ Sd given up the acting bug, though I longed to perform for people.
I am a writer, and writing leads to book tours. These readings satiated my desire to move an audience to laughter or tears. But readings are safe. The author stands behind a podium, anchored to a book.
I wanted more. Which is how I found myself enrolled this year in an improvisational comedy course at the SAK Comedy Lab in Orlando.
Most cities have a comedy scene, but Orlando 鶹Ʒ Ss is no joke, and neither is SAK, the site where Whose Line is it Anyway? star Wayne Brady got his start.
Improv, for the uninitiated, is the art of building a scene or song, usually comedic, around an audience-suggested subject. Unlike standup comedy, the material is made up on the spot. Sometimes, the results are spectacular. Sometimes they 鶹Ʒ Sre failures. Both are fun to watch. Even if you 鶹Ʒ Sve never seen improv, chances are your entertainment has been steered by it for decades. From Saturday Night Live to The Office to The Daily Show, most casts and writers 鶹Ʒ S rooms are staffed with people who got their start in improv.
Improv is the best cure I 鶹Ʒ Sve found for anxiety.
So, why improv? Why would I, a stage fright-prone, spotlight-phobic, generally anxious person subject himself to the torture of standing onstage before strangers without the safety net of memorized lines or written material? Because, counterintuitive as it sounds, outside of therapy, improv is the best cure I 鶹Ʒ Sve found for anxiety.
There are few rules to improv, but here they are: Don 鶹Ʒ St think. Listen. Say yes to everything. And, give yourself permission to make mistakes, because you are not alone.
That 鶹Ʒ Ss it. I mean, there are hundreds of tips and tricks, but all of them fall under the umbrella of those general guidelines, and it 鶹Ʒ Ss those guidelines that spit in the face of anxiety. Because, what is anxiety? Anxiety is a fear of the future. General or specific, anxiety is the voice that tells you to worry over what happens next. As a friend once told me, you don 鶹Ʒ St have to worry about whether you will die. You will. Make peace with that, and figure out how to live. Simple, but not easy.
So, how does improv training combat anxiety?
First, anxiety is often the result of spending too much time in your head. In an improv, there 鶹Ʒ Ss no time to think. And here 鶹Ʒ Ss the beautiful part: You don 鶹Ʒ St have to think, because there 鶹Ʒ Ss no wrong answer. The only wrong answer is no. Recently, I saw an improv show in which a woman was dancing. Her scene partner interpreted the dance as wing flaps. He thought she was a chicken. But, the scene had already established her as a woman. So, for the preservation of both truths, she became a woman who laid eggs. This happy accident led to material that was 10 times funnier than anything they 鶹Ʒ Sd been doing.
All of which is to say, second, that improv is a safe place to make mistakes. In good improv, everything 鶹Ʒ Ss incorporated, even the errors. This takes practice, sure, but it can be done. And, even when it 鶹Ʒ Ss done poorly, improv audiences are remarkably forgiving. Unlike other comedic forms, improv is rarely performed in clubs. The culture of improv is closer to theater than stand-up. I 鶹Ʒ Sve never, for example, seen improvisers heckled.
Third, improv combats anxiety because it comes with teammates built in. You 鶹Ʒ Sre never alone. If your anxiety takes over, your scene partners will rescue you. Say you freeze onstage, they 鶹Ʒ Sll even use you to guide the scene. ( 鶹Ʒ SLet 鶹Ʒ Ss get this ice sculpture inside before it melts! 鶹Ʒ S)
But, the most anxiety-obliterating aspect of improv is that your answer to almost every suggestion is already written for you. The answer is 鶹Ʒ SYes, and. 鶹Ʒ S (Player 1: 鶹Ʒ SI heard you turned your backyard into your very own Jurassic Park. 鶹Ʒ S Player 2: 鶹Ʒ SYes, and the velociraptors are loose again. 鶹Ʒ S)
You don 鶹Ʒ St have time to question your partner 鶹Ʒ Ss motivations. You don 鶹Ʒ St have the luxury of overanalyzing the offer or weighing your options. You have no time to wonder whether your response could be rephrased for maximum impact, or whether it 鶹Ʒ Ss potentially problematic, or whether it 鶹Ʒ Ss funnier to one political party or the other, or whether it 鶹Ʒ Ss going to get you in trouble at work, or whether your children are watching, or whether your parents would approve, or whether your answer will showcase your smartest, best, most photogenic self. You don 鶹Ʒ St have time. You freeze, you 鶹Ʒ Sre an ice sculpture. You flee, you let your scene partners down. So, you fight. You perform. You say 鶹Ʒ SYes, and, 鶹Ʒ S and you say whatever pops into your head, no matter how silly or strange.
How fulfilling, then, to have an outlet like improv, a place to be anyone you want for at least a few hours a week.
And there 鶹Ʒ Ss something freeing about that onstage, if not necessarily in life. Life isn 鶹Ʒ St the ideal place for such behavior. How fulfilling, then, to have an outlet like improv, a place to be anyone you want for at least a few hours a week.
Please don 鶹Ʒ St misunderstand. Improv is not a get-out-of-jail-free card to be offensive. Improv is at its best when it 鶹Ʒ Ss tolerant and accepting of all, when every offer comes from a place of love and celebration, and when the fun we poke is mostly at ourselves. But, if you 鶹Ʒ Sre someone who agonizes over every Tweet and Facebook post, or how each word will land on others 鶹Ʒ S ears, you might, like me, embrace a culture where it 鶹Ʒ Ss okay to mess up, a place where you 鶹Ʒ Sre given the benefit of the doubt, because it 鶹Ʒ Ss assumed you want to honor others and make them laugh.
In a world where we tend to think the worst of others until we 鶹Ʒ Sre proven wrong, it 鶹Ʒ Ss a pleasure to find a place like SAK where it 鶹Ʒ Ss safe to take risks and play, no anxiety required.
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