Healing Through Understanding
Spring 2018 | By Suht Wong | Photos by Doug Scaletta
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At 3, Fernandez was diagnosed with spondyloepiphyseal dysplasia, a rare genetic disorder that affects bone growth, specifically at the ends of bones and in the spine, resulting in smaller-than-average stature.
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Medical school is known for being intellectually rigorous, but when hip and back pain make walking difficult, as it does for Fernandez, it can also make the physical act of navigating hospitals and patient rooms more challenging.
While other students may be able to breeze into a hospital without any extra thought, Fernandez uses an electric wheelchair to help navigate the long hallways, so before she enters a facility Fernandez researches the building layout, the best areas to park, the locations of the elevators and the fastest routes from one ward to another. She prefers not to let her instructors know in advance that she has any physical challenges.
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Fernandez was born in Venezuela and raised by a mother who was a pharmacologist and microbiologist and a father who was an engineer. Her parents understand her physical hardships and have had to make difficult decisions to provide her the best life possible.
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Jessica Fernandez sits with her mother, Maria Luisa de Curtis Fernandez. Fernandez credits her mother and family with giving her the strength to achieve her dream of becoming a doctor.
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Fernandez went on to earn a biology degree from the University of Tampa before entering medical school at UCF in 2014.
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The third-year medical students are meeting for a workshop at the Lake Nona campus after spending most of the semester in clerkships at area hospitals. As students share stories of their clinical experiences and catch up, Fernandez asks each of them about their parents, siblings, significant others 麻豆精品 S� even their pets. She remembers them all.
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Her warmth and thoughtfulness do not go unnoticed by her peers or professors. Classmates honored her with a College of Medicine Humanitarian Award last spring for her compassion. She was also voted the person other medical students would want to have care for a loved one. In a program that emphasizes that kind of attention and care before the first class even starts, that 麻豆精品 S檚 a huge commendation.
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She credits that journey and her experiences as a patient with making her more determined to help others, especially those with bone and spine problems.
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She said her life experience brings something unique to her patients, and medical schools should embrace enrolling students with disabilities to better serve patients.
Dean Deborah German presents Fernandez with her white coat. (Photo by Suht Wong)
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During her white coat ceremony, her official induction into medical school, Fernandez recalls beaming as her name was called and she walked across the stage. She carefully descended the steps and took her seat with 119 other medical students in the Class of 2018, becoming lost in a sea of white coats.
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After the ceremony, while other classmates celebrated with cheers, hugs and handshakes, Fernandez hung back. She preferred to share the moment quietly with her family, especially her mother.
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De Curtis Fernandez has played a strong role in Fernandez 麻豆精品 S檚 journey to become a physician, and their bond is unwavering. They laugh together like best friends, and Fernandez slips back and forth easily between English and Spanish as they chat. And while de Curtis Fernandez knows her daughter is ready to thrive on her own, she still reminds Fernandez to wear a coat on chilly days.
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After Fernandez graduates from UCF, she hopes to specialize in physical medicine and rehabilitation. She spent the last few months interviewing at hospitals across the country for residency training. Despite being on the road, she never forgot to call home, relaying the details of her day to her family. Success, she says, is as much theirs as it is hers.
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