Such Great Heights
Summer 2016 | By Jeffrey Billman ’01
鶹Ʒ SThe whole spaceflight experience 鶹Ʒ S 鶹Ʒ S
Her voice, which typically effuses confidence and energy but now sounds almost wistful, trails off, like she 鶹Ʒ Ss searching for the right word. And then she lands on it: 鶹Ʒ SSurreal. I 鶹Ʒ Sm so thankful for the pictures and videos. They remind me I was really there. 鶹Ʒ S
Nicole Stott 鶹Ʒ S92 has been on this planet for a little over 19,000 days 鶹Ʒ S and off it for 104, in two space shuttles and a three-month stay on the International Space Station. She 鶹Ʒ Ss one of 533 people to enter Earth 鶹Ʒ Ss orbit and the 52nd woman to do so 鶹Ʒ S and the 10th woman to perform a spacewalk.
Stott doesn 鶹Ʒ St dwell on her place in history. But the enormity of what she accomplished 鶹Ʒ S the decades of preparation, the fearlessness of riding a rocket into the sky at more than 25,000 mph, and the six hours and 35 minutes spent in the vacuum of space, with only a bulky spacesuit and a thin white tether protecting her from the starlit abyss 鶹Ʒ S stays with her.
But when she was in space, the surrealism wasn 鶹Ʒ St as daunting; the focus was on the specific, nitty-gritty objectives of each particular mission: fix this thing, check on that thing, make sure this other thing is running properly. Stott, like most astronauts, can talk for hours about the technical minutia that goes into keeping a football-field-size station operating while hurtling through space at 17,500 mph.
鶹Ʒ SYou realize you 鶹Ʒ Sre not from Florida or the United States. You 鶹Ʒ Sre an earthling. The bottom line is we are all earthlings. 鶹Ʒ S
Down here, those things feel impossibly complex. Up there, it 鶹Ʒ Ss the job you came to do 鶹Ʒ S unglamorous but necessary. And so you focus on the task at hand. Then you come home and have time to reflect on what you 鶹Ʒ Sve just experienced. 鶹Ʒ SI 鶹Ʒ Sll tell you, a spacewalk, that 鶹Ʒ Ss one of the times of my life where I felt the most alone and detached from any other human being, 鶹Ʒ S Stott says. 鶹Ʒ SBut at the same time, I also felt the closest and most connected to humanity. 鶹Ʒ S
She was alone in a literal sense, floating more than 200 miles above the Earth, far removed from life on terra firma. But from such great heights, you also see that indescribably beautiful blue marble, set against the blackest black, differently. The distinctions that drive so much conflict 鶹Ʒ S race, class, religion and ideology 鶹Ʒ S are no longer visible.
鶹Ʒ SYou realize you 鶹Ʒ Sre not from Florida or the United States. You 鶹Ʒ Sre an earthling. The bottom line is we are all earthlings, 鶹Ʒ S Stott says.
So last year, when Stott retired from NASA after 27 years, she decided that conveying this sense of awe and wonder was her new mission. And she does this with a brush and canvas, creating paintings that portray what it 鶹Ʒ Ss like to live and work in space and offer a sense of our place in the grand scope of the cosmos.
鶹Ʒ SI want people to look at [the paintings] and maybe think differently about where we live, 鶹Ʒ S Stott says. 鶹Ʒ SYou can see Earth as your home, really looking at your home planet. People don 鶹Ʒ St consider it that way all the time. People don 鶹Ʒ St realize they 鶹Ʒ Sre in space. 鶹Ʒ S
And if you think about it that way, she says, perhaps you 鶹Ʒ Sll take better care of it.
Stott 鶹Ʒ Ss first-ever tweet was full of exclamation points. 鶹Ʒ SOn orbit! Feeling great! Launch was an incredible kick off the pad! Smiled the whole way! Got a 鶹Ʒ Swoo hoo 鶹Ʒ S in there for good measure! 鶹Ʒ S
Her first flight, aboard Discovery STS-128 鶹Ʒ S STS-128, meaning the 128th space shuttle mission 鶹Ʒ S blasted off from Kennedy Space Center at 11:59 p.m. on August 28, 2009. There were seven crew members; Stott was the only woman.
Stott and mission specialist Tim Kopra pose for a photo on Discovery while docked at the ISS.
While the astronaut class of 2013 had as many men as women, Stott 鶹Ʒ Ss class in 2000 had 14 males and only three females; all three were classified as mission specialists, not pilots. This wasn 鶹Ʒ St uncommon. As Amy Foster, a UCF associate professor of history who has studied women in space, points out, many of the pilots are drawn from the male-dominated Air Force. The women, on the other hand, tend to come up through the science and engineering fields, like Stott did. And 鶹Ʒ S at least at the dawn of the 21st century 鶹Ʒ S they stood out.
鶹Ʒ SThey definitely get appreciation, 鶹Ʒ S says Kevin Ford, a member of the 2000 astronaut class and the pilot of STS-128. 鶹Ʒ SThey had to come through a little tougher path to get there. 鶹Ʒ S
Stott 鶹Ʒ Ss path began in Clearwater, Florida. Like most children of her generation, she watched the Apollo missions and the moon landing. She thought being an astronaut was cool, but it seemed far removed from her reality. Airplanes interested her more; her father flew them.
鶹Ʒ SI wanted my dad to show me not just how planes are built but how they fly, 鶹Ʒ S she says. 鶹Ʒ SThe idea of flying into space evolved from a love of flying in general. 鶹Ʒ S
She didn 鶹Ʒ St want to be a pilot, at least not as a vocation. She wanted instead to become an engineer. She earned her private pilot 鶹Ʒ Ss license and attended Embry-Riddle, earning a B.S. in aeronautical engineering in 1987.
鶹Ʒ SThe only thing normal about every day is that every day is different. 鶹Ʒ S
She soon got her first job with NASA, as an operations engineer at Kennedy Space Center (KSC). Over the next decade, she held a number of positions at KSC and went to grad school, earning a master 鶹Ʒ Ss degree in engineering management from UCF in 1992, which she says was 鶹Ʒ Slike the icing on the cake, preparing me for what I wanted to do with the astronaut office. 鶹Ʒ S She started to realize that going into space didn 鶹Ʒ St seem so far-fetched.
So in 1998, she applied for the astronaut program. Two years later, she was accepted.
NASA officials told her class it would take about six years for them to get into space. In reality, it took nine as NASA assessed the loss of Columbia and its crew. In the meantime, Stott spent 18 days in 2006 living underwater as part of NASA 鶹Ʒ Ss Extreme Environment Mission Operations program, earning the title of aquanaut and claiming the women 鶹Ʒ Ss world record for saturation diving. But fly she did, as did all 17 members of her class. And like most of them, she went to space twice.
The first time, she spent three months on the International Space Station, where she performed maintenance tasks, did a spacewalk, assisted with research activities, and helped track and capture a Japanese cargo vehicle.
On the space station, Stott says, astronauts 鶹Ʒ S days are planned from the ground, sometimes down to 5- or 10-minute increments: when to wake up, when to eat, daily tasks, the occasional moment of free time and, finally, sleep.
As regimented as that sounds, Stott says, each day was a new adventure. 鶹Ʒ SThe only thing normal about every day is that every day is different. 鶹Ʒ S
But one day was more different than the others: September 1, 2009, her spacewalk. Her prep for the spacewalk began the day before with a deliberate process to remove nitrogen from the body since, like divers, spacewalkers are at risk of getting the bends. Just before the walk came another elaborate process: getting suited up. After that, the airlock was completely depressurized, and the hatch opened. She was in the void.
鶹Ʒ SI had spoken to a lot of people who had done spacewalks, 鶹Ʒ S Stott says. 鶹Ʒ SPeople have come out of the airlock and felt immediately disoriented. I was very pleased to not experience any of that. 鶹Ʒ S
She and fellow spacewalker Danny Olivas had a couple of jobs that day. They had to remove a massive old ammonia tank and attach it to the station 鶹Ʒ Ss robotic arm. They also retrieved a technology experiment to be returned to Earth.
Stott rode on the robotic arm for 20 minutes, holding the bulky tank in her hands. 鶹Ʒ SI felt like I was standing on the floor, 鶹Ʒ S she says, 鶹Ʒ Sand everything else was moving around me. 鶹Ʒ S It was very peaceful, almost Zen-like 鶹Ʒ S I could nap here, she thought to herself. 鶹Ʒ SYou don 鶹Ʒ St want to do that, 鶹Ʒ S she adds.
During her stay, Stott did two things that no one else had ever done. She was the first person to paint in space. And about halfway through her tenure, Stott co-hosted the first live NASA 鶹Ʒ Stweetup 鶹Ʒ S from the station, interacting with Twitter followers at NASA headquarters in Washington, D.C.
Stott had a knack for this sort of public relations, says Michael Barratt, who overlapped with Stott on the station for three weeks. She is 鶹Ʒ Sintense and really bright but also warm and affable. She could have been my long-lost sister, kidnapped by gypsies, 鶹Ʒ S Barratt says.
While on the station, she and Barratt were tapped for another, higher-profile mission, one for which the space agency wanted to put its best foot forward 鶹Ʒ S the final space shuttle flight. (As it turned out, this was not the last one, but STS-133, which Stott was on, was Discovery 鶹Ʒ Ss 39th and final mission.)
鶹Ʒ SWe were looking for specific astronauts, 鶹Ʒ S says Steven Lindsey, who commanded STS-133, 鶹Ʒ Swith superb technical capabilities but that could also represent NASA well. [Stott] was specifically chosen because we knew she could do that. 鶹Ʒ S
鶹Ʒ SEverybody has members of a dream team, 鶹Ʒ S Barratt says. 鶹Ʒ SShe was on a lot of people 鶹Ʒ Ss lists. 鶹Ʒ S
Before she went into space, Stott remembers listening to the former Apollo astronauts, the guys who went to the moon, talk about seeing Earth from up there. The word she kept hearing was insignificant 鶹Ʒ S as in, humanity and our little planet seem very small in this grandest scheme of things.
鶹Ʒ SThat really bothered me, 鶹Ʒ S she says. 鶹Ʒ SHow can 鶹Ʒ Sinsignificant 鶹Ʒ S be the word? 鶹Ʒ S
That wasn 鶹Ʒ St how she felt at all amidst the stars; she felt awed. Think about it: If the Earth was a little closer or farther from the sun, if the ionosphere and magnetosphere were not there to stave off solar flares, if the atmosphere wasn 鶹Ʒ St able to fend off X-rays and gamma rays, life here could never have emerged or evolved. None of what we know 鶹Ʒ S our histories, our civilizations, our very consciousness 鶹Ʒ S would exist.
We hit the cosmic jackpot.
One day on the space station, Stott says, she floated in front of a window and saw her home outside, so small and immense at the same time. 鶹Ʒ SIf we never find another one of us, that 鶹Ʒ Ss fine, 鶹Ʒ S she thought. 鶹Ʒ SIt reinforces that we are significant; we were put in this perfect place for a reason. 鶹Ʒ S
鶹Ʒ SWhen I 鶹Ʒ Sm 95, you can ask me if I want to go into space, and the answer will be yes, unequivocally yes. 鶹Ʒ S
After her last mission, Stott led several different groups at NASA and was in line to fly again, but by 2015, she started to wonder if it wasn 鶹Ʒ St time to step aside, to tackle something new. She wanted to spend more time with her son, Roman, who is 13. 鶹Ʒ SFrom a family standpoint, 鶹Ʒ S she says, 鶹Ʒ Sit was the best decision I could have made. 鶹Ʒ S That didn 鶹Ʒ St make it easy, however. 鶹Ʒ SYou have to be in a place where you 鶹Ʒ Sre moving on to another adventure 鶹Ʒ S not that you 鶹Ʒ Sre running away from something. 鶹Ʒ S
That new adventure was her art.
She 鶹Ʒ Sd painted before; in fact, she 鶹Ʒ Sd grown up doing artsy-craftsy things like woodworking and painting Christmas cards. Before her first journey to space, she decided she wanted to do something creative while there, so she brought a small watercolor kit.
In 2009, Stott completed the first painting done in space. The Wave is based on a photo taken through the window of the ISS. She has since created a mixed media piece (right) based on the same photo of the Los Roques archipelago in Venezuela.
Her first painting in space 鶹Ʒ S the first painting in space, made on the space station in 2009 鶹Ʒ S was a watercolor called The Wave, based on a picture she took from space of the Los Roques chain of islands, off the northern coast of Venezuela. To keep the paint from floating away, she dipped her brush into a drop of water before dipping it into the dry paint. The result was an image as seen from space, a thin stretch of green land jutting into a blue ocean.
鶹Ʒ SI wanted to find a way that would allow me to creatively express the experiences I 鶹Ʒ Sve had, 鶹Ʒ S she says.
She has two series of paintings. The first is what she calls the spacecraft collection, which captures life and work scenes from her space shuttle and space station flights. The other is a collection of paintings based on the photos she took from space 鶹Ʒ S an effort to spread the message that 鶹Ʒ Sthis is our planet, and we need to take care of it. 鶹Ʒ S
In that vein, last year , calling on them to act now to save the planet 鶹Ʒ Ss future.
And, as a speaker who visits schools all over the country, she also wants to inspire kids to do what she 鶹Ʒ Ss done in her second career: Blend art with science. The acronym is 鶹Ʒ SSTEAM, 鶹Ʒ S a play on STEM (science, technology, engineering and math) with an 鶹Ʒ SA 鶹Ʒ S for 鶹Ʒ Sart 鶹Ʒ S thrown in.
鶹Ʒ SThere 鶹Ʒ Ss always been this need to keep the arts in play with the science and tech stuff, 鶹Ʒ S she says. 鶹Ʒ SEven the STEM people, if they really thought about it, they 鶹Ʒ Sd see that everything we do in engineering or in the lab, just being curious, is very artistic. The way we communicate math is very artistic, as is the imaging of astronomical data. It really all comes down to communication. 鶹Ʒ S
Integrate art into STEM fields, she argues, and you 鶹Ʒ Sll not only have more well-rounded students but more engaged students. 鶹Ʒ SWith STEAM, 鶹Ʒ S she says, 鶹Ʒ Swe 鶹Ʒ Sre starting to realize that we need to think about education again in a more Renaissance kind of way. 鶹Ʒ S
Similarly, she says, her time in space has made her fonder of science fiction. At its best, Stott says, sci-fi is a combination of artistry and science that tickles our imaginations and expands the boundaries of what we conceive as possible.
There 鶹Ʒ Ss another reason science fiction appeals to Stott: She hasn 鶹Ʒ St quite shed the space bug. 鶹Ʒ SThat desire to go into space will never go away, 鶹Ʒ S she says. 鶹Ʒ SWhen I 鶹Ʒ Sm 95, you can ask me if I want to go into space, and the answer will be yes, unequivocally yes. 鶹Ʒ S
Jeffrey Billman 鶹Ʒ S01 鶹Ʒ S10MA graduated from UCF with a B.A. in journalism and an M.A. in political science. He is currently the editor in chief of INDY Week in Raleigh-Durham, North Carolina.